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Tuesday, November 17, 2009

12:01 PM

HELLO THERE MY DEAR FRIENDS DID YOU KNOW THAT THIS IS MY 200TH ENTRY HERE ON BLOGSPOT! THAT MARKS SUCH AN ACHIEVEMENT IN THAT I'VE BEEN WRITING FOR A GOOD 3 YEARS.

Wow. What a long time it's been. Here's a look into the past through the years. ((: time to reminisce amidst the exam prep. I don't know when each of the photos were taken but they are arranged chronologically (as far as i can remember, of course) Laugh at the unglam shots, at how I was so cute, and even make the old but ever effective "OMG WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU YOU WERE SO CUTE!" joke if you want, but yeah. Know that I haven't forgotten all the people who've seen me through these few but very important years.

I've grown and so have all of you. And even those that aren't in any of these pictures. I love you guys. I appreciate every one of you and though I may not say it quite as much as I should, I love you guys. You're here in my life for a reason and I thank you all for being so patient, so loving, so supportive and for being so wonderfully warm and beautiful. I love you all and I hope to speak to you all soon.

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Monday, November 09, 2009

2:46 AM

Music has the power to make your heart swell with so many emotions. With just a chord, with just a transition, with just a simple swelling of the strings in the background, it can make you keel over in tears, or warm the coldest heart.

It's graceful, it's impartial and it's so beautifully pure. At the same time, it can be so unapologetically brash, harsh and even raw in it's pain and you never can predict the impact it will have on different people. That is the beauty of music. And while I speak of the subject as a person who knows next to nothing on the technicalities of music, I speak with the conviction of a person who's felt the power of music despte not really understanding it fully.

I love music. Not quite as much as I love the stage, but it comes pretty close. Seldom do I speak of things with such vigour and passion. (:

I sing with my mouth. But I listen with my heart.

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Sunday, November 08, 2009

5:38 PM

Hatred is a sin. Because it blinds and it prevents you from seeing, feeling and hearing God properly. More than that, Hatred goes against everything that a Christian believes in, portrays, and stands for.

Annoyance and disgust, however. Well, let's just say there isn't much said about it. I can be a pretty big bitch to you if you annoy me with your intolerance, your lack of maturity, and your inability to get off your moral, religious and narrow-minded high horse. Nothing makes a person more despicable than intolerance. You are the reason why we have fundamentalists, war and strife. You are a representative of everything that Christians stand against. We are meant to love the sinner, and detest the sin. By being such an asshole that you amalgamate the sinner with the sin, and refusing to admit to such a mistake, you become the detestable one. How do we help those that we already reject? You disgust me.

And that's why I cannot look you in the eye. When I do, it reminds me of everything I want to ignore about you and when I can't ignore it anymore, that's when I will snap at you. And trust me. Nothing is going to end it until I've had my say. You're the scum of the earth and you deserve to rot away to be eaten by maggots. You are the scum of the earth and nothing will give me greater joy than seeing you get beaten up for offending a bunch of gay men, a bunch of muslims, buddhists, and just basically anyone that you've offended, in general. And trust me. I'll be right there by the side, listening and watching you writhing in pain and choking on your own blood and then dying out of sheer humiliation and self-pity. You deserve every ounce of punishment you are gonna get. Damnation upon you.

Pfffffft. Okay perhaps my annoyance kind of escalated to hatred. My fault. Alright the Christian thing I shall do. I will leave it up to God to change you. And he will. I in the mean time will walk on by in life and be relieved of my annoyance for you. Because you are the scum of the earth and you don't deserve my acknowledgement.

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/edit:

On a calmer note. I realise that it is slightly ironic that i talk about being disgusted by intolerant people, when I myself am so bloody intolerant of them too. And so. The mature thing to do, is to forgive and move on. I am better than this. I am above all of this.

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Saturday, November 07, 2009

2:11 PM

I behave stupid to make you laugh. I act like a fool because it amuses you. I say and move like a loser but only because you find it funny. I may seem like the most oblivious and unknowing person around, but the truth is. If you think that that in anyway is who I really am- that I am any bit of the loser that you think I am, then I'm sorry.

You're the only fool around here.

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Friday, November 06, 2009

11:03 PM

For goodness sake, things don't always have to be perfect for you to exist. The floor doesn't need to be impeccable, the sheets don't have to be crisp, there doesn't need to always be this disgusting piercing silence in the room for you to study and function - yes function. You're incredibly square and it annoys me. This is a dormitory. We adapt to things around us. Things aren't perfect. You want things perfect, then go get a single room. If not, move out. You can't control everything that happens here.

Deal with it.

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Friday, October 30, 2009

12:59 AM

You have come tonight, and you have laid your hand upon me. You've touched me once again and I cannot thank you enough for this miracle. This is my miracle and I am grateful for every second of it. You reached out to me, I felt it. I know You held your hand out to reassure me of your presence when i never moved, and I never left. You knew that I needed you, that I have never forgotten you, and that I have stayed true to you. And tonight, You've reminded me of everything that I live, for, the reasons behind my choices in life, and the reason why I am blessed the way I have been blessed. Father I want to thank you for tonight. I want to thank you for the kind soul, whoever he or she may be, who sent me that Hillsong link, which started this all in the first place, and brought me back to you. God bless that person, Father. Your plan is eternal and Your plan is perfect, and it works in mysterious ways. I know that. And I will forever live to worship and be a beacon of light for You. To be an example. I will be Yours forever.

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Thursday, October 29, 2009

2:25 PM

Please help pass the word.
Or this 4-month old kitten gets abandoned.

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